So I am leaving my secure job in the middle of this corona crisis. when few are getting laid off because of this economic turbulence due to the Covid situation,(though the Indian economy was already performing badly under this current government), I choose to respond to the wake-up call. People are probably tagging me as mad, I just want to tell them if you call a deaf and dumb person as "deaf", then you are insulting the person, same is here. you should not call a mad (who sometimes thinks out of the box) as "Mad". Anyway, I am thinking about where should start from.
Arguably this is my second retirement from a job. Before coming here in Bangalore, I took a break of 6 months and did Vipassana, visited my home after a long time. I arrived here on the 3rd of April 2019 by train. for the first month, I travelled to nearby places from this City. Then I started attending interviews and in the middle of the month of May, I got the job and joined the organization in June. As I am writing this blog am still serving the notice period. It is an MNC, I wanted to work in a product-based MNC and it is that. I have been working in the IT Industry for 8 years. I like developing software and I know there will be ups and downs in professional life related to work. Just before the starting of this Covid situation, I have seen some changes in organizational structure, which I was worried about. But even these were not the reason to take the decision. then the Covid arrived with its full strength in India around March and we were instructed to work from home. So most of the employees went to their home and continued working from there. I didn't go, because I was not sure whether should I go to Kolkata or Alipurduar or Dhubri. So I stayed here alone as my roommate also left for his hometown in June. I am not fond of staying at Home much, I was staying away from my home from my schooldays, and it is not a new thing to me. But what this lockdown did to me is it forced me to think about my goals. I have been working as a software developer for a long time but still did not do any revolutionary thing, I am still writing the same if-else -for -while, which anyone can write."Am I doing sacrifices for these things ", I asked myself. I did Vipassana for two non-consecutive days to clear up my mind. I found this was not the thing I wanted to do. I have some plane for the near future, so it is actually not retirement as such, but I am not going to reveal it now.so it is simple, I was in a comfort zone, which made me feel insecure. Friends said that I could try in other companies, even in other domains, but I know the scenario will be the same, maybe the pay would be a little high. I was trying to fit my lifestyle on Maslow's hierarchy of needs , and I found myself searching for self-actualization, though other layers of the hierarchy are still not accomplished. So I had to take that risk, all the responsibility of the outcome of the decision making will be on me. Lately, I was not performing well on my job despite the fact my higher authority was happy with my work. They told me to go home and to think and reconsider the decision. I know it is now like jumping off the cliff, But I couldn't help it.
So why I choose to come here in south India or precisely in Bangalore, It is because of the opportunities in the IT industry here. I had high expectation about the work culture here, which still holds. and another reason was a TV series, yes the Malgudi days. I wanted to discover a town like the fictional town of Malgudi. I found a few places on the way towards Chikmagalur. Anyway, this was my secondary reason to be here.
Anyway, I came here without Job and am going back to my home without Job. That's all folks.
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